I am a Stroke Survivor
Back in November 2020 I had a moderate case of covid and wrote about my experience. On June 13, 2021 I had a massive stroke as a result of long covid that left me temporarily paralyzed on my left side. This is the story of my stroke and my recovery.
June 13, 2021
June 13 was like any other day. I had gotten up and I had just finished taking a shower, and I was walking back to the bedroom in my bathrobe. I walked into the bedroom and all of a sudden I started feeling lightheaded. I continued walking and everything seemed to happen like it was in slow motion like when you're in a traffic accident. I started to lose my peripheral vision. It was like curtains were closing across my eyes coming in from both the right and the left while my eyes remained focused straight ahead with tunnel vision. At that point I felt my left leg start to give out from under me and I started to fall and everything started to go black. I blacked out. I remember hitting some furniture on the way down, which is probably a good thing since it broke my fall and kept me from breaking any bones.
The next thing I knew I was lying on the floor in the bedroom. I was unconscious for, I'm going to say, about 10 or 15 minutes. I woke up and I tried to get up and I was unable to make my arms or legs obey me. I was laying on the floor and I could not sit up. I was trying to sit up and stand up and get into my easy chair and get to my phone so I could call for help but I could not even sit up. I could not talk or yell.
My companion happened to come in from the living room, and she saw me there and she tried to help me get up but she wasn't strong enough. At that point she got on the phone and called my best friend, Dave, who is a really big guy, and she told him what had happened, and he drove straight over. Dave and Shayla sat me up in the chair, and then Dave called 911 and got an ambulance. Dave is the first one to figure out that I had a stroke. It turns out that Dave's father had a stroke about 20 years ago, and Dave said his father was never the same after that. So Dave knew exactly what to look for. Dave also knew that there is a golden hour for strokes. The sooner you receive tretment for a stroke, the better your chance for a full recovery.
I was very fortunate because my companion, a nursing student, was here with me in the house and she found me within about 10 minutes after I had my stroke. They got me to the ER within 20 minutes of my stroke. There doctors ordered a CAT scan to determine if I had an ischemic stroke (blockage) or hemorrhagic stroke (internal bleeding) and then administered a drug by IV called TPA ( Tissue plasminogen activator) to break the clot up. (The charge for the drug was $20,000 on my Medicare statement.)
They put me on a helicopter and sent me on a half hour flight to Oklahoma City to the Stroke Center at Mercy Hospital. I vividly remember the trip as I was lying immobile on a stretcher in the back of the helicopter and felt the panic of thinking I might be permanently paralyzed as I discovered that as hard as I tried, I could not move a finger on my left hand or wiggle a toe on my left foot.
I spent three days in the ICU at Mercy Hospital and then I went to their rehab center for five days where I received physical therapy. I have made almost a 100% recovery and it was all due to the fact that they got me to the ER and administered the drug to break the clot up before too many brain cells had died. I consider myself 99% recovered. I have my movement back in my left arm and my left leg.
Long Term Effects of the Stroke
I do have a couple of long term effects of the stroke.
First I had to learn to walk again in rehab. I had drop foot and was prone to dragging my left foot behind me. Apparently I lost feeling and control in the nerves on the bottom of my foot. However it all seems to have come back and I am walking almost normally again. My brain rewired itself to get the outputs from my foot nerves. Not much is known about the specifics of how cognitive function is restored, however it appears that the signals from my foot were re-routed into healthy brain tissue and I slowly regained sensation and control over my left arm and leg. It has taken me about three months to learn to walk as confidently as before the stroke.
I also had some difficulty swallowing liquids. When you swallow there is a little flap that automatically goes down to cover your windpipe so that water does not enter your lungs. The part of my brain that controls that flap must have been affected because I could not swallow correctly. I had to be very careful because I would start to choke when I drank water and it went down my windpipe. During rehab, they taught me how to consciously force that little flap to go down and cover my windpipe and now I am all right but I have to think about it consciously every time I swallow liquids.
The other long term effect that I have is with my bladder. I still have complete bladder control. However, several times a day I felt an overpowering urgency to urinate but when I go to the bathroom I produce only a small amount of urine. Something is wrong with my bladder nerves which are sending false signals to my brain. My urologist has prescribed a medication for me, which seems to have solved the problem.
I think one of the factors in my complete recovery was that I'm in pretty good shape. I do treadmill and do free weights two or three times a week so I had a lot of strength and endurance when I had the stroke and that speeded my recovery. I have started doing treadmill and weights again but I have a noticeable lack of strength in my left arm. When I do an exercises with 25 pounds with my right arm. I have to lower it down to 20 pounds to do the same exercise with my with my left arm.
I have not noticed any memory loss of loss of cognitive ability. I am still able to balance my checkbook and create a spreadsheet without any difficulty. But who am I to judge. It reminds me of a phone interview I did a few years ago when I was taking out a large term life insurance policy. One of the questions they asked me during the interview was if I had noticed any memory loss at my age. "I don't remember having any memory loss," I answered and we both laughed.
I am sure that the key to my recovery and to my survival was the fact that I had someone with me who found me very quickly after I had my stroke and knew what to do about it. if I had been alone here in the house I am convinced that I would have died on the floor.
Five Year Survival Rate
I'm 72 years old and I understand that the five year survival rate for someone my age who has a stroke is about 30% which is not too encouraging. However I think that my five year survival probability is going to be much higher than that because I've made such a strong recovery and I am getting myself back in shape.
The other thing to note is that I had a moderate case of COVID last November which I have written about. My doctor says that my stroke is almost certainly the result of long COVID. In one study A total of 103 (1.3%) patients developed acute ischemic stroke among 8163 patients with COVID-19. My doctor says there are reports that COVID can attack the cells on the interior of the heart causing clots to form inside the heart, One large clot apparently broke loose and went up my carotid artery and caused the blockage to my brain.
I am taking a blood thinner now called Eliquis which should prevent any further clots from forming. Hence, I think there's a low probability that I will ever have another stroke but I will be on Eliquis for the rest of my life.
Lucky to be Alive
I am lucky to be alive and I plan to use the years I have left to complete my work here on earth. Paradoxically the experience has left me more comfortable with the idea of my eventual annihilation. If I had not been found in time, I would have just died on the floor and never woken up. The experience of blacking out was not painful or unpleasant and when I have to go I hope it is with a stroke and that I just don't wake up. it is not something I fear.
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About the Author

Hugh Pickens (Po-Hi '67) is a physicist who has explored for oil in the Amazon jungle, commissioned microwave communications systems across the empty quarter of Saudi Arabia, and built satellite control stations for Goddard Space Flight Center in Australia, Antarctica, Guam, and other locations around the world. Retired in 1999, Pickens and his wife of 33 years moved from Baltimore back to his hometown of Ponca City, Oklahoma in 2005 where he cultivates his square foot garden, mows seven acres of lawn, writes about local history, photographs events at the Poncan Theatre, produces the annual Oklahoma Pride series with his wife at Ponca Playhouse, and recently sponsored the first formal dinner in the Marland Mansion in 75 years. Pickens is founder and Executive Director of Pickens Art Museum with locations at Northern Oklahoma College in Tonkawa, Oklahoma, City Central in Ponca City, and Pickens Gallery at Woolaroc. Pickens can be contacted at hughpickens@gmail.com. Pickens is a covid survivor and a stroke survivor.
Personal Statement
Most days you will find me sitting in my easy chair with an HP laptop or a book in front of me. I enjoy intellectual pursuits: studying, writing, reading, researching, analyzing, and predicting. During my off time I like riding the backroads of Oklahoma in my hot rod, working out, watching old movies on TCM, playing games like chess or dominoes, participating in community theatre, and, my secret pleasure, reading trashy detective novels by John D. MacDonald. I enjoy theater and concerts and I go to NYC several times a year to see Broadway shows and visit galleries and museums.
Pickens' Publishing
In 1996, Pickens edited and published ''My Life In Review: Have I Been Lucky of What?'', the memoirs of Jack Crandall, professor of history at SUNY Brockport. Since 2001 Pickens has edited and published “Peace Corps Online,” serving over one million monthly pageviews. Pickens' other writing includes contributing over 2,000 stories to “Slashdot: News for Nerds,” and articles for Wikipedia, and “Ponca City, We Love You”. Pickens has written the following articles available on his wiki at Research and Ideas.
- ''My Life In Review: Have I Been Lucky of What?''
- “Peace Corps Online,”
- 2000 stories to “Slashdot: News for Nerds,”
History and Biography
I enjoy doing in-depth research on one person and writing a detailed biography of lesser known events or figures. I like to find someone, an artist, a politician, a former Peace Corps Director, or an Oklahoman, that I like and am interested in learning more about them and writing their biography from scratch. I started and filled out dozens of biographies when I wrote for Wikipedia back in the stone age in the early 2000's when they were getting started. But Wikipedia became too bureaucratic and political for me so now I research and write biographies on my own mediawiki platform. (I only make anonymous edits to Wikipedia now usually on the discussion pages.)
- My Biography of Jon Carson -The Man Who Won the Presidential Nomination for Barack Obama (>888,000 pageviews)
- My Discovery that Barack Obama's Mother Grew Up in Ponca City February 6, 2009 (>389,000 pageviews)
- Academy Award Winning Screenwriter Chris Terrio (>400,000 pageviews)
- Biography of Ninja of Go! Team (Nkechi Ka Egenamba)
- History of the 100-Year Old Oil Refinery in Ponca City, Oklahoma (>535,000 pageviews)
- My Uncle Donald and America's Fresh Water Submarines in World War II (>171,000 pageviews)
- What Happened to Okies after "The Grapes of Wrath" (30,000 pageviews)
- The Pioneer Woman Models Come Home to Ponca City February 26, 2010
- President Barack Obama's Mother Grew Up in Ponca City February 6, 2009
Science and Technology
I graduated with a degree in physics from SUNY Brockport in 1970 and have worked in science and technology my entire career. I have held such jobs as Geophysical Observer on a geological survey crew in the amazon jungle, running a portable hydrocarbon detection laboratory on an oil rig, systems engineer for the microwave communications system and supervisory control system on the 800-mile long Trans-Andean Pipeline, independent contractor to Collins Radio in 1979 installing, commissioning, and testing microwave repeater stations all over Saudi Arabia, military advisor to the Royal Saudi Navy on naval communications, navigation, and fire control systems (1980 - 84), project engineer, then project manager for Bendix Fields Engineering (later becoming AlliedSignal Technical Services, then Honeywell Technical Services) from 1984 until my retirement in 1999.
- Building NASA's GRO Remote Terminal System (GRTS) in Australia
- Slashdot Posted a Story about me and an article I wrote about my recovery from covid in 2020 277 comments
- 2,400 Stories I have published on Slashdot over the years
- Why I enjoy Writing for Slashdot
- Contributions to Wikipedia]
- Why I enjoy Writing for Wikipedia
- Stories on Soylent News
Business and Investing
I am a speculator and enjoy designing and executing trading strategies that exploit market inefficiencies through my assessment and evaluation of information asymmetries, market psychology, and human emotion. Over the years I have put together several open-source histories of companies I am interested in including micro-caps that I have invested in.
- An Independent Evaluation of Phillips 66, its Business Strategy, and Execution (over 1,000,000 pageviews)
- Latest News from Phillips 66 (>450,000 pageviews)
- A History of the Ponca Refinery in Ponca City (>268,000 pageviews)
- A Financial Model for Tucows and Ting (over 1,000,000 pageviews)
- The Story of "Keep Burlington Local" and the Schurz/ZRF Conract Award
Ponca City, Oklahoma
I was born and grew up in Ponca City, Oklahoma, a town of about 25,000 somewhat isolated in North Central Oklahoma (a two hour drive to the nearest metropolitan areas in Tulsa, OKC, and Wichita.). After I left Ponca City to go to college, I worked overseas and on the East Coast for 30 years. But my wife and I came back to Ponca after our retirement in 1999.
Ponca City is an interesting amalgam of historical developments including being being founded and created from scratch during and after the Cherokee Strip Land Run in 1893, becoming an oil boom town in the 1920's, home of the "Palace on the Prairie" built by oil magnate E.W. Marland, home to Conoco's R&D facility employing hundreds of Phd.'s in the 1950's, 60's and 70's giving Ponca a character of a university town, and finally the continual influence of Native American tribes on our history especially the Ponca tribe and Osage Nation. Some interesting articles I have researched and written about Ponca City include:
- Hugh and Dr. S. J. Pickens Sponsor First Dinner Served in E. W, Marland Formal Dining Room in 75 Years December 18, 2016
- "Lydie Marland in the Afterlife" Reinterprets the Life of Ponca City's Controversial First Lady June 30, 2017
- The Pioneer Woman Models Should Return to Ponca City July 13, 2007
- The Pioneer Woman Models Come Home to Ponca City February 26, 2010
- President Barack Obama's Mother Grew Up in Ponca City February 6, 2009
- Standing Bear Looks to the Future
- Ponca City, We Love You
- What to See in Ponca City
- Railroads and Ponca City
- Ponca Playhouse to Present "The Broken Statue" January 17, 2012
- What Ponca City Owes EW Marland June 20, 2012
- How Much Money Does the Marland Refinery in Ponca City Earn for Phillips 66? July 23, 2012
- EW Marland and the Movie "The Ends of the Earth" (320,000 pageviews) May 23, 2013
- Sculptor Bryant Baker's Lost Masterpiece November 3, 2015
- Ponca Playhouse Production of "Lydie Maryland in the Afterlife" Ends in Triumph
Pickens Museum
Pickens Museum is a distributed museum that is active in three location: Northern Oklahoma College in Tonkawa, Oklahoma, City Central in Ponca City, Oklahoma, and at Woolaroc Museum near Bartlesville, Oklahoma. The museum has plans to build a 15,000 ft2 art museum on highway 60 West of Ponca City, Oklahoma. in the next few years.
- Pickens Museum
- Doctor Pickens Museum Facebook Page
- Meet the Team that is Going to Design Doctor Pickens Museum May 21, 2018
- World's Largest Naja on Display Outside Ponca City by Stephen Schwark August 29, 2018
- A 1949 Hudson Limousine August 2018
- Jo Davidson Sculpture from 1929
- Native American Artist Tonya Rafael Visits Ponca City February 2018
- Pickens Museum Opens New Exhibition "Winter in New York" by Roger Disney January 22, 2020
- The Three Faces of the Pioneer Woman by Daniel Pickens February 2020
- Letter from a Birmingham Jail by Faith Ringgold February 21, 2020
- The Turquoise Guitar by Jolene Bird November 26, 2018
- Sculptor Bryant Baker's Lost Masterpiece November 3, 2015
- Doctor Pickens Museum of Turquoise Jewelry and Art
Art
- My Biography of Academy Award Winning Screenwriter Chris Terrio (>400,000 pageviews)
- The Pioneer Woman Models Should Return to Ponca City July 13, 2007
- The Pioneer Woman Models Come Home to Ponca City February 26, 2010
- Ponca Playhouse to Present "The Broken Statue" January 17, 2012
- EW Marland and the Movie "The Ends of the Earth" May 23, 2013
- Sculptor Bryant Baker's Lost Masterpiece November 3, 2015
- A Ponca City Mystery - Who is this man? April 5, 2018
- Ponca Playhouse Presents: August Osage County"
- Biography of Ninja of Go! Team (Nkechi Ka Egenamba)
- I Refuse to Be Lonely Phyllis Hyman's Final Album
Peace Corps Writing
I served as a Peace Corps Volunteer in Peru from 1970 - 73 working with the Peruvian Ministry of Education teaching high school science teachers how to build lab equipment out of simple, cheap materials. In 2000 I started "Peace Corps Online" to document the work volunteers are doing around the world both during and after the Peace Corps Service. I ran the web site for ten years and posted about 10,000 stories. Even though the site is no longer active, I still get over 50,000 monthly pageviews.
- Peace Corps Online
- Peace Corps Library
- The Peace Corps "Sharp Incident" in Kazakhstan
- My Testimony before the Senate Foreign Relations Committee on the Nomination of Gaddi Vasquez as Peace Corps Director
- An Interview with Peace Corps Director Ron Tschetter
- An Interview with Peace Corps Director Gaddi Vasquez
- A Profile of Peace Corps Director Aaron Williams
Personal
- Dr. S. J. Pickens October 21, 2017 (53,000 pageviews)
- Pickens Museum Opens New Exhibit Honoring Dr. S. J. Pickens
- I Am a Covid Survivor December 27,2020 (27,000 pageviews)
- The Anger and the Guilt I can Handle - It's the 'Missing Her' I Can't Stand June 1, 2018
- My Uncle Donald and America's Fresh Water Submarines in World War II (>171,000 pageviews)
- Death Be Not Proud - a Remembrance of my friend Peter Militch (58,000 pageviews)
- My Favorite Christmas
- A Victorian Mansion in Baltimore's Reservoir Hill (41,000 pageviews)
- Remembering John D MacDonald and His House on Siesta Key (75,000 pageviews)
- Remembrances of My Life as a Geophysical Observer with Petty Geophysical Working in the Amazon Jungle in Peru in the early 1970's (14,000 pageviews)
- My blog on Facebook
- The Time Somebody Tried to Light a Fire in Front of Our House on Good Friday April 7, 2015
- Pickens Answers on Quora on Investing, Day Trading, Becoming a Millionaire, Human Loss, and Faking Your Own Death
Phillips 66

For nearly 100 years oil refining has provided the bedrock of Ponca City's local economy and shaped the character of our community. Today the Ponca City Refinery is the best run and most profitable of Phillips 66's fifteen worldwide refineries. The purpose of this collection of reports is to provide a comprehensive overview of Phillips 66's business that documents and explains the company's business strategy and execution of that strategy.